Two languages in one head?!

A year and counting later...

2018-12-09T21:56:07Z

So, last year I posted about how a family member had been diagnosed with ALS. Turns out his case progressed rather more quickly than average. He died this summer, a few months before his 40th birthday.

There's much I could say here, about my feelings on the matter, about those last few times I got to visit him, about how it affected my family (and how they (almost) all rose to the challenge of this dx, each in their own way), about the wonderful send-off he got (he and my sister made plans well ahead of time, very thoughtfully, and enough of it had online components so that we could participate even without being able to be physically present at the funeral)...but I'm trying to keep things short for now.

There were other things going on, too, like helping to get sylvaine moved into their new place back in ~February. People having kids. That dratted heatwave we had this summer. Background radiation of global political landscape.
My memories of this year are spotty and jumbled and unfocused. I spent the latter half of the year playing catch-up on "regular" check-up appointments with various doctors, having lost track of them for somewhat obvious reasons last year.

Point being, my dysthymia's had a great year and I've had even more trouble with bringing myself to do things like posting on here than usual (or keeping in touch with people).

And now my reading page here on DW, which had been so full of tumbleweed for such a long time (never stopped me from checking it a couple times a day, tho), has become more lively again and I feel like this might be a good time to give y'all an update on where I've been (hoping I'm not just shouting into the void this time around).

I really hope DW will stay reinvigorated for a good long while, it's been lovely to see. I'm a little sad for all the posts I could have written that never quite made it past my brain, and I hope I can make some of them happen eventually.

On the topic of things I might post, what would you be interested in?

what I've been doing in my free time
current developments regarding my own health
more in-depth post on subjects mentioned above
more in depth-post on other subject of your choice
an update on things from older posts that you've been inadvertently cliffhangered on
upcoming attractions
other
???

♥

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Entry random enough that I almost forgot to add a title ^^

2017-09-27T15:09:37Z

I think I'll just have to accept that I won't be able to bring this journal up to date with everything that's happened while I wasn't posting *sigh*

Heck, I barely manage to keep sylvaine and anotherslashfan in the loop these days.

( still, some sort of update, if somewhat disorganized )

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seyren @ 2016-02-08T18:19:00

2016-02-08T17:19:44Z

Huh. Apparently, the herbal medicine I started taking for my PMS last year is taking effect. Or, well, it is having an effect. My symptoms seem particularly terrible this month, and the same was the case a month ago /o\ Wonderful. (A couple months of upheaval are to be expected when futzing around with hormones, so this might still even out)

Other things since last proper update:
I put in a lot of work on two crochet projects. One just waits for a proper blocking, the other one I just shoved in the wardrobe after nearly finishing it. That fucker has been fighting me tooth and nail for the past week, and I now hold a major grudge against the designer of this pattern. MAJOR grudge.

I actually did manage to listen to Hamilton about a week after posting about my intentions to do so, and oh god, so many tears. I am totally sold on this and curse my geographical location bc I really wish I could go see it.

And life has once again turned toward the entirely too interesting, with upcoming major life changes drawing nearer. Also, anotherslashfan is coming to visit us during her brief break from China, so that is excellent (and a welcome cause for some clean-up ^^)

Also, guess who forgot to take their meds this morning? Yup, that would be me *siiiiigh*

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My lovely moment for the day

2016-02-02T16:48:57Z

Today's been very grey and drizzly and rainy, with a fair bit of wind. So I kept the windows shut, because I do not appreciate our possessions getting rained on.
I finally got a chance to open the windows to air the place out properly just now. And got an awesome show of clouds with sunset-pinkened tufts. So ofc I immediately texted sylvaine to take a look out of their window, bc awesome happening. And got a reply that was basically "IKR? :D" bc they'd spotted it before me. I love little moments of communal nature-appreciation (long-)distance like that ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

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stumbles into 2016 with the grace of a wounded dodo

2016-01-06T18:36:51Z

I am sorry to interrupt your regularly scheduled avalanche of Snowflake-related posts

but I have some (unrelated) whining to do. Which will hopefully explain my absence on there.

You see, I made it through the holidays mostly unscathed (it was quite pleasant, really, minus the toll it takes on my body and my spoon deposit), and New Year's was absolutely lovely*, but after that I appear to have gotten off on the wrong foot with 2016.

( Read more... )

And maybe next time I'll manage to remember that I've actually encountered a lot of fannish squee right before all this stupid stuff happened and that I kinda wanna share (I went through some more audio books, watched SW:TFA aaaaand, uh, something? *tries to peer through the murk* Oh, right, I've got Hamilton waiting for me to listen to it***, and a couple (actual paperback) books to go through. And ursulav had another of her novellas published, a sequel-ish to Jackalope Wives: The Tomato Thief.

Gods, I'm tired. Think I'll take it easy for the rest of the night and chill with some of the fancy soda I got for xmas. *raises bottle of locally sourced artisanal tonic water* May 2016 be better, for all of us! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

* first time introduction of sylvaine to this particular group of friends, so I was a bit nervous beforehand, but everyone got along great :DDD <3
** shout out to Wild Yarn Dreams for enabling me with a beautiful custom-dyed hank of Second Life Silk ♥
*** out of sheer self-defense, because there's A LOT of references going right over my head, lately, and a lot of excellent people got really excited about it, so I'm guessing it might be worth my time. Was true enough for TFA, after all.

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A post of things

2015-12-23T15:50:46Z

Visiting family for the holidays, having a mostly lovely time*. The weather is utterly unseasonable, but "clear, cool early spring" was great weather to visit some of my old haunts and stroll around the christmas fair, yesterday. Much nostalgia was had. We're staying at a neat little rental place, all very IKEA and very new and somewhat unenthusiastic heating, and a terrific location, with a (once again) lovely view of the valley and I wish we had more time to just chill there and enjoy it.
Instead we're mostly hanging out at mom's place, wich is also lovely, but a little less restful. Right now, she's busy in the kitchen, struggling with a batch of gingerbread (and now she's conscripted S to help roll it flat ^^), and I'm sat at the dining table and typing up this update, because I've been wanting to blog a bit for ages.

There's been some wonderful food cooked for us already, and there's sushi in our future, and tomorrow is fondue and gift giving.

We've also had a bunch of excellent conversations, and a frustrated-by-ableism tantrum/flounce on my part that was resolved in the best way possible (I actually got an apology, and also hugs and also positive feedback) and just...they're /learning/ :'D

I'm leaving a trail of tiny crocheted turtles in my wake, since I already finished the only other project I brought along with me, and showing off this year's crochet creations has resulted in some very satisfying compliments.

I other news, I've made good use of Audible this year, and listened my way through Ann Leckie's Imperial Radch trilogy (which is delightful; the Hugo for Ancillary Justice was well-deserved) and a couple other things that I enjoyed to some extent (tho not as much as that one). Also got my hands on hardcovers of Ursula Vernon's Castle Hangnail and Hamster Princess, and those were adorbs.

As busy as summer was, this fall was pretty excellent, and then I ran a gauntlet of long-overdue doctor's chek-ups and that was a bother, but still. Got a lotta crochet done, and splurged a little on shiny things. After many years of not giving a fuck about New Year's Resolutions, I have decided this: I resolve to treat myself to more shiny yarns ^^

Stay safe, everyone, there's holidays afoot <3

*medically speaking, not so great, have had pretty persistent headache ever since before the weekend, but thanks to plenty of distractions I hardly notice it. Also low on spoons and heightened pain levels due to travel, nothing surprising.

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Aww, bugger

2015-11-04T11:35:24Z

So, Adam Lambert will be coming back to Europe for some tourdates* in 2016. And I got excited for about a microsecond.
First off, he appears to be entirely passing over my area of Germany (the three German dates announced so far are Hamburg, Berlin and Munich), secondly those dates are right around my birthday**, and thirdly, for the night of the Berlin date I've already scheduled a different band's concert way closer to home, and I'd really hate to miss out on that one.

I'd also hate to air-travel someplace one week and attend a concert wherever and then also attend a concert here the same week (or one before or after), it all seems rather ridiculously stressful.

It's been 5 years since I've seen Adam live (or, well, hardly a year since I saw him with Queen, but that was a very different experience ^^). I am having a whole host of mixed feelings about this, especially when I take into consideration who else might go when and where and AUGH /o\

It's possible that more sensible-for-me-dates are yet to be announced, but for right now? I really don't know what to do, apart from grumping.

Aaaand also there's some stuff with S still up in the air where we don't exactly know what the greater schedule is going to be like, so that's another potential collision point. (no, self, we are not going to marry *** in Berlin on the day of a concert, that is stupid, shut it.)

I do realize that this is kind of a luxury problem to have, but uuuuurgh. Kinda feel like, no matter how things go now, that gig on April 29's kinda ruined by the knowledge of missing out on the other gig that night, either way.

* after completely snubbing us last album
** which in recent years would also often coincide with BBQ meetups in the Netherlands
*** do not be alarmed, we are only going to go to city hall and have our legal status adjusted, no grandiose celebration of any sort, nobody's invited (not even fambly) because romance is dead and we like it that way *g*

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This is /so/ my idea of a good time :D

2015-11-01T11:59:21Z

So yeah, we made it happen. sylvaine accompanied me, S drove us to the venue, and I even got all gussied up for the occasion*.

( all about the Garbage gig last night <3 )

In other news, I got a bunch of crochet projects finished, in the name of charity and stashbusting, and I'm glad to be back to it after September's unpleasantness had cast me into a rut for a while.

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What do, what do?

2015-09-17T08:24:12Z

So, apparently Garbage are doing a short anniversary tour this year, celebrating the release of their debut album 20 years ago. One of the shows is in Germany. It's just on the edge of what I consider doable, in terms of ticket price (35 €), getting there (~1h drive*) and venue (have been there once before and thus know what to expect).

And the album they're celebrating? One of the most important albums to angry!teenage!me; I've listened to the whole thing on repeat for so many hours of my life that each song is etched indelibly into my mind. Which seems like a good reason to go, even though I've never seen Garbage live in concert.

But who to take with me? I'm not sure I know anyone who'd be interested AND able to be here for that weekend.

I know from previous experience that going to a show with someone who's not into it is decidedly less fun than being in enthusiastic company.

And also, I'm not sure if I have the spoons for it. Summer's been busy, and I had kinda hoped not to have any big events before Christmas. And this concert just so happens to be on Halloween, so the likelyhood of run-ins with drunk weirdoes is higher than usual. I am so torn on whether or not to get tix for this. I'd love some feedback on this to help me decide, if you have any to offer ♥

* that is, if S does the driving. At least it's on a Saturday, so work is unlikely to be an issue for him.
ETA: sylvaine has volunteered as tribute, and S is willing to drive us. So I guess I know what I'll be doing for Halloween this year :DDDD

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witty titles are for people who haven't spent all day in the bathroom

2015-09-02T18:52:36Z

I just can't seem to catch a break *sigh*

I mean, I was thankfully, gloriously infection-free for the whole time sylvaine was staying with us over summer*. And then I had family visiting for a couple days and that was great, and we had awesome food (but I made some pretty terrible food choices in favor of culinary delight) and I was really looking forward to just having a week to myself for purposes of decompression and catching up and whatnot.

And instead S twisted his ankle and I ate a bit of rotten food** some time last week and have been suffering the consequences ever since. ( sordid tale of medical sordidness ) And I'm just. so.damn.tired. of having to manage my fucking health (and having everyone in my life helping to manage my health) and dealing with this lemon of a body. And yet. My situation is still so much better than other people's.
And that sucks for those people, and I hope their lots will be improved by their fellow human beings. (currently thinking of several distinct groups: Black people in the US just trying to survive in a deeply racist system, refugees trying to make it to/in the EU (some of the things we've seen in recent weeks, some of the rhetoric is really scary if you're not entirely uneducated wrt German history), spoonies in the UK suffering the dismantling of the NHS and rampant ableist populism, spoonies that I share my condition with who are more severely affected by it...)

...still not over Monday's doc assuming I'd need a sick note for work simply bc of my age. it's not like I omitted my medical history, it's just that he omitted the 'listening' part.

So anyway, still aten't ded, despite life occasionally conspiring to make me wish for oblivion. Had adventures in house-and-job-hunting with sylv. Did some crochet stuffs. Been watching the internet melt down over various things. Had a lovely phone-call with anotherslashfan the other week, before she's off to China for a year (I still gotta figure out skype /o\). Watched my friends and fandom being awesome online (and rooted for them when their lives turned less than awesome). And am perpetually waiting for filed paperwork to be processed (at least this time they mailed to let me know it might take months <3). There you have it, folks: my exciting life, 2015 edition.

PS: I'm really glad I declined to attend the informational meet-up thingy happening this weekend. Woulda been shitty timing.

* which, for the most part was pretty great. 's just that I tend towards introversion by nature, and not having my own space all to myself upward of three months? Yeah, if anyone missed me during that time, sorry, I was all people'd out and had no social spoons left.

** Why would I do that? Well, I had some slices of smoked ham as a snack, and the corner of one of them was kinda dried-out, discoloured and tasted weirdly sour. I do realize I should have just spat it out at that point, but sometimes people with mental conditions make bad decisions. Kinda feel like it was the same "the laws of physics don't apply to me"-disconnect that has people speeding on rain-drenched highways. In the moment, it seemed more important to not be difficult about sending for another/different snack *sighs loudly in the general direction of past!self*

*** considering some of my past experiences with hospital settings, I can't really blame him. But goddamn it, sometimes I just want to be hospitalized and taken care of and not accrue more terrible memories tied to my lovely living quarters, tyvm. Strangely enough, those sometimes tend to be when I'm bent over the toilet, sobbing, because I've thrown up for the third time that day and I'm getting worried about dehydration. Not sure how I feel about that last sentence making it sound like this is a recurring life event for me. I mean, I guess it is, at this point? But can we not? *sigh*

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Overdue life update

2015-04-18T13:07:18Z

Hooboy, that was a long winter. Not necessarily in terms of the weather, but in terms of hibernation. There was also a lot of busybusy and funbusy interspersed with stretches of chill, and stretches of sick (srsly, that was about three bugs too many for one winter season *grump*) and while I still keep checking friends' posts whenever possible, I've felt somewhat disconnected and stuff. I guess my blog-posting muscles atrophied from disuse or something to that effect, idk.
( more blather about my exciting life )

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I aten't ded...

2015-03-12T22:32:25Z

...but Sir Terry Pratchett is. And I'm having a lot of feels regarding this, and also regarding other people's feels regarding this. Need time to process, tho, so instead of writing a heartfelt thing now, I'll refer back to this Snowflake Challenge one which I wrote last year, about why the Discworld means so much to me.

Sending hugs to all my fellow fen.

de chelonian mobile

*sniffles*

ETA: next morning, and my reading page is an unbroken line of "Goodbye Terry" posts and I'm sniffly all over again. Read some wonderful things from people like John Scalzi, Ursula Vernon and Maureen Johnson. I have an appointment in an hour; no idea if I can manage any semblance of productivity there.

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Away notice

2014-12-20T10:01:54Z

Soz for disappearing, guys. I kinda got lost in an unruly crochet Christmas project and with 4 days left, it's still not finished /o\
Also, we're leaving to visit family tomorrow, and won't be home for a couple days and then it's almost New Year's and January is gonna be busy in the best way. So yeah, I'm still around (sort of), but kiiiiinda distracted.

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There hasn't been a wall in 25 years. 25 years. Man.

2014-11-09T10:31:40Z

25 years ago, on the 9th of November, our father let my sister and me stay up late to watch TV. He said something along the lines of "something big is going to happen, I can tell."
And it did. That night, the Berlin Wall came tumbling down; the days of a separated Germany were counted. A separation that I hadn't even been aware of until ~half a year previous, when our summer travels* took us to a small inn right at the border.
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Grr, aargh!

2014-11-05T13:53:21Z

I don't like this time of year.

Srsly.

Can't I just hibernate until the days get longer again?

And really, do I really need all the monthly werewolf-y bullshit on top of the seasonal sads?

No.

No, I really don't.

It's been ~6 weeks since I picked up this cough, and while it has gotten better over the last couple days, it still lingers. Can we not?

I mean, srsly, this shit's getting old.

And also, I'd like to go back to the gym some time. Like, this year.

lbr, this year is almost over.

*siiiiiigh*

*cough*

okay, soz, I don't think this is turning into the life update I meant for it to be.

No, I don't know what's up with the alphabetical bullet points, either.

My brain's weird *shrug*

Doesn't feel like there's much of note that I missed posting about.

I suspect that's depressed thinking, though, because it's not like there hasn't been stuff happening.

Like, we totally renovated the hallway.

And it looks awesome.

(no, we totally failed to take any pictures so far, despite it being done for weeks now ^^)

And, uh, stuff? I think?

Mostly I've been procrastinating on going to see the commissioner for the disabled about a couple of things.

and similar such things.

There's also been some half-hearted crochet. And browser games.

Oops, looks like I'm running out of alphabet. Time to wrap this up.

Okay, baaai, I might actually have a post for Sunday, seeya then ♥

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Short Update

2014-09-20T09:30:20Z

I'm back home. S spent all of Wednesday in the car to pick me and sylvaine up and drive us here and it has vastly improved my general state of well-being. We even managed to go out for sushi & Ikea on Thursday ♥

And then I meant to post this yesterday and got distracted, but anyways, no worries, we're good.

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I R incompetent patient, over-doing all the things

2014-09-16T19:29:14Z

Jeepers, you guys. I had such an amazing weekend, but I super-failed at self-care and borrowed against tomorrow's spoons until I hit my credit limit and basically I've been a wreck since Sunday. So many shiny people tho, never want to miss a thing...right up until I end up massively missing out on whatever our plans were because I failed at pacing myself and f'ed up my digestive tract with bonus migraines and anxiety on top. Blergh.

sylvaine's been a trooper about it, though, and even braved the kitchen and just went out to buy me water (minerals! I needs them) and kept me distracted from feeling too horrid and the hugs are helping, too. And all that despite the fact that the two of us barely add up to even one functional adult. Seriously, kudos.

Still, I am desperately outside of my comfort zone, and we had to phone S for a crisis management consult this morning, I was so out of cope. Very annoyed with myself for letting it get to this point (I really, really could have made better decisions regarding food the last couple days). Also somewhat apprehensive regarding the way back home...will I manage to recover enough to brave the trains this weekend, or will I have to call S in for an extraction*?

I also have either acquired some sort of con-crud, or allergies are kicking me wile I'm down; not sure which and ill-suited to properly deal with either atm. This was supposed to be a fun visit, and also a chance for me to support sylvaine with their ongoing stuff and instead I'm in no condition to even leave the house and need looking after *sigh* Unanimous vote is for next meet-up to happen at my place again, because seriously better for everyone involved.

Wouldn't want to have missed out on any of the people tho, or the chance to really immerse myself in my native dialect for a while. Getting to hang out with sylvaine's friends was a pleasant surprise and well worth the spoons.

Not looking forward to next week, which is full of appointments I can't really reschedule/cancel, when all I wanna do is hide in my bed until I'm recovered.

On se niin väärin!** :(

*emergency back-up plan we came up with is for him to drive down here to pick me up and get me home safe. Train ticket wasn't that expensive
**srsly, Helsinki Complaints Choir is never not on point ^^

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Let there be warmth!

2014-09-11T10:33:51Z

Good news, we're getting our new heaters soon :DDD

Better news: the old ones'll be removed while I am away. Away TO VISIT MY FAVORITE sylvaine!!! \o/ :DDDD *happydance*

Soooo, gonna be busy for a while, and when I'm back home there's a whole bunch of appointments waiting for me. Never a boring day in my life.

And there's awesome new music out and it is on my MP3-player, so I'm all set for my train rides. This week's already been a lot, and there is more to come.

Aaaaaaand we bought new mattresses, because the old ones were getting on a bit and my back was not amused by that. Cost us a pretty penny, but considering we got two for the price of the first one I'd cautiously considered for myself*...yeah, still a good deal, even if it ain't perfect. No mattress is ever going to be perfect for me, anyway, so why throw more money at the problem if it's not actually going to fix it?

And as ya'll can tell by this post, I'm am busily procrastinating on the suitcase-packing front ^^ Oh well, I'm sure to manage somehow, before I hafta leave tomorrow. I usually do.

*excited bounce*

*the ad copy made it sound like the perfect match for me, and it was pretty comfy, but it wasn't perfect enough for me to pay that kind of money, when there's decent-ish alternatives for way less. Ideally, I'd just sleep in zero G.

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No place like home (pic-heavy post)

2014-08-25T19:32:41Z

So, yes. It is finished! My new room is awesome and renovated and it feels like home and also it's kind of high-concept ^^
( an explanation of 'What the hell were they thinking?' )
Miraculously, it worked out. So here it is, my new home, the Mouse-room of Four Elements:

( view once around the room )
( details and highlights )
( bonus giffage of ridic )

A note: massive thanks to S, for taking the pictures in the first place, for helping me select and crop and resize and then finally for some serious code-wrangling when formatting this beast of a post proved too much for me ♥ If anything still looks odd or broken or just plain bad, it's probably because we've reached the point of the evening where we go "Ah, fuggit!" and post anyway before I lose another half-a-day to neurotic adding and removal of <br /> tags ^^

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Time, buckets, and memories

2014-08-23T23:09:41Z

How has it already been 11 days since my last update here? How has it almost been a fortnight since I moved into this room (and why does my bed seem more intent on killing me than usual)? How is time?

I mean, at least I finally managed to get a haircut & henna again; that was entirely overdue. Still haven't seen the dentist about that filling, tho ^^ oops. And we also finally got around to taking high-res pics of my new room in all its glory, so expect a picture-heavy post soon-ish.

There have been a great many things happening, some awesome, some terrible, out there in the wider world and on the internet, and I have a lot of opinions and feelings attached to all that, but am mostly unable to express it on here. I'll try anyway, for some of it.

( ALS Ice Bucket Challenges )

( speaking of severely live-changing conditions )

( teenage mental health stuff )

I also found a photo-album of toddler/kindergarten!me and was delighted to discover that even back then, my gender presentation was all over the place / somewhat androgynous. Nice to have that confirmation that I've just always been a weirdo / never really got the hang of gendered anything. Well, the 80es' fashion aesthetics probably weren't exactly helping that whole thing, either.

Not long now, just a couple more weeks and a bit and I get see sylvaine again *is much excite* ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
And with some luck, we'll also have our new heaters installed by then (I wish we already had them in, this August/November-mashup is kinda brutal and I've borrowed S's electric blanket several days in a row). I never knew I could get this excited over heaters, but there you go.
Can't wait to share room pix, but that requires some editing and formatting and stuff that I've not quite managed today, and not sure when I will.

It's con season, and people whose lives I follow in one way or another are attending them (or, in some cases, volunteering/staffing) and sharing their experiences and it's cool. I'm glad I get to live vicariously through them, without having to expend so many spoons; especially this year, what with renovations, it would have been utter madness. Same time, I'm a little wistful I don't get to meet any of these shiny people in person (Ursula Vernon is in Berlin rn. It's a rare occurence to have her on the same continent, nevermind the same country), but hey, new digs ^^ So worth it :D

Festival season, too, now that I think about it, and that's pretty much the same thing, with the shiny people nearer than usual and yet still out of reach bc resources like time, money and spoons were already allocated otherwise.

But much more importantly, in September I get to see some of MY PEOPLE (several different categories of that, even), and the travel cost for that is much more manageable and also I don't have to pay for room and board. \o/

Also, to bring this back to something I touched on at the beginning of this entry:
Where did the year go? Why is time? And, more to the point: why the eff am I still up and typing this at 1am instead of sleeping?

PS: I actually did receive my August monies before the end of the month. That's good, right?

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Whoops

2014-08-12T05:38:56Z

Was so busy with renovations and furniture and stuff that I totally failed to boot up one of my computers for three whole days in a row*. So, if anyone was wondering where I've been, that's where. My new room's really coming along, I've spent the first two nights in my new bed, everything reeks of new furniture *opens ALL THE WINDOWS* and it increasingly looks like home and I am so very much in love with this room, idek, it's pretty great that I got to do this and that so many of our ideas actually worked out and that I was able to splurge on some stuff that maybe I shouldn't have (We had a perfectly good, long table here. We bought two shorter, newer ones anyway so I could make the room layout I wanted work).

S is at work now, so I won't be moving any heavy furniture today, but there is plenty of small stuff to do, and maybe I should actually drop by the dentist's place and get that filling replaced that I lost while he (the dentist) was on vacation ^^

Right-o, breakfast, shower, then back to work getting this place all pretty and liveable :D

* I don't think I can catch up with everything I missed, and I probably don't want to (in case anything exploded), either. If anything (fannish or otherwise) happened that you think I should know about, please let me know in comments ♥

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FML

2014-07-31T10:44:25Z

Oh ffs!

Why the fuck did I think I had the bureaucratic BS over with? Why did I think the transition from one office to another would go over without a hitch? You'd think by this point I would have realized that it's never easy.

But still, getting the classic "We're not responsible, they are" "nuh-uh, try over there *fingerpoint*" back-and-forth seems just a little too cliché to be real. Idek. It's so fucking stupid.

And my account balance is looking very sad, bc ofc I took the whole thing where I'm not allowed to have much on there to heart, so July has been an exceptionally spendy month*. And now I don't know if anyone's going to feel like giving me my August monies.

That's just...great. I mean, it's not going to cause any immediate financial troubles for me (the way it does to a LOT of other people who get the same kind of runaround), but it's still stressful and we still have to deal with it somehow, while we're kinda busy with the whole renovations thing. Which is stressful enough on its own, and we can't seem to find a single uninterrupted day with nothing else going on to just do the fucking wallpapering already, oh my god.

And they didn't even try to notify me, only reason I know this shit now is because S** called them to ask why I hadn't received my money yet.

And to think I already started the day off tense because Joel was a dick on twitter and we're expecting potential contractors to have a look-see about the heating situation (and have two more scheduled for Monday. sheesh) Can I just take a break from reality for the rest of the day? *whine*

* it is remarkably easy to hemorrhage money when you're renovating, holy shit.
** me and the anxieties gladly leave things like that to him, because AUGH *hides in shell*

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quick update from the DIY front

2014-07-24T12:00:07Z

Woohoo, remodeling is proceeding nicely after we had to take a heatwave-related break over the weekend.Bought wallpapers, painted ceiling, made tons of adjustments to our plans. Hoping to see a bunch more progress over this weekend before S has to go back to work for 2 days. 's all very exciting :D

Things I look forward to: more space, cool new surroundings, IKEA, proper guest bed, assembling more furniture, screwing things, feeling accomplished.
Things I dread: fumes, moving all my stuff over, having to decide what goes where and what to toss, figuring out the lighting, the possibility that we've miscalculated something and we'll break stuff, finding space for all our goddamn STUFF /o\

srsly, why is there so much stuff? I've only lived here for *coughcough* years. And what do we even need all this stuff for?

Next up: Spackle! *bounces off excitedly, potentially high on paint fumes*

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Let me love you tonight ♥

2014-07-14T18:43:36Z

Guess what, guys? There's another
♥ LOVE MEME ♥

full meme | my thread

Now I know what to do with my free evening, yay :D Come play and feel the love ♥

Also, special alert category: my good friend armanya still needs help with her gofundme campaign; I know I've been going on about this one, but it's been very slow going for a while now and I'm worried about her. She's doing her best with the shitty hand* she's been dealt, but I really think some more signal-boosting and donating might be in order here ♥ that kind of stress is not good for anyone's health, so please, if you can, help a single spoonie mother out.

*srsly, the Swedish social security system is not as good as you'd think anymore.

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I Guess It's Donation-Drive Season: yet another signal boost

2014-07-06T07:44:53Z

I know I've recently already signal-boosted on behalf of armanya here and mathsnerd here (and both of those still need further donations to reach their respective goals), but now akamine_chan needs help, too. Details here on DW, on tumblr and she's also started a mini fanworks drive for those who'd like to donate their time and skills rather than money. And the GoFundMe page is here.

I know Aka as a prolific creator and community organizer / Force of Fandom. The snowflake_challenge is her brainchild, and that is one of the best fandom things I ever took part in.

If we weren't in the middle of remodeling our home, I'd be tempted to offer small crocheted things for the donation drive, but as it is I already have a couple things queued up and no space/time to really work on them.

I really need to find a way to earn money, so I can keep up with all these donations ^^

Edited Mon 7/7/2014: AWESOME! Aka has already hit her goal, car is a go \o/ :D That was one quick donation drive there :D

However, the above-mentioned drives of armanya and mathsnerd are still open, and seem to have stalled out a bit. I think some more signal-boosts might really be in order. Especially considering that apparently armanya still has the threat of eviction dangling over her head, despite part-payment.

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