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Feb. 10th, 2025 12:48 am
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About


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◣ Chris ⊹ 20s ⊹ No They/Them◥
Current obsession: To be honest, I don't know.
Website[community profile] vkotd[community profile] joseimuke


【 Hobbies 】
⊹ gaming
⊹ drawing
⊹ reading
⊹ surfing the web
⊹ listening to music
⊹ studying languages
(right now, japanese, spanish,
and sometimes mandarin)
⊹ translating



【 Interests 】
⊹ humans
(history, culture,
language, etc.)
⊹ joseimuke
⊹ fashion
⊹ stuff that's
before my time
⊹ being gay or whatever



【 Please Interact 】
⊹ people who share my interests
⊹ people who are black like me
⊹ people not from/in the U.S.
⊹ #ethical and #tasteful perverts
⊹ queer/whatever you call it POC
⊹ the open-minded
⊹ translators
⊹ weirdos



【 Back! Back, I Say! 】
(I'm Probably On YOUR DNI)
⊹ netflixvania fans
⊹ bigots (with special emphasis
on racists and transphobes)
⊹ anti-socialists/communists
⊹ anti-shippers + people who are
annoying about being proship
⊹ meanies :(


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Some of the art I like + some of my favorite characters ^^

About the Blog:
♦ I share and say pretty much whatever I want. Observations, reviews, beautiful things, helpful things, completely useless things, I've got it all. It's both personal and "fannish" because being a fan of things is part of my life and mind, but I do have other interests and happenings going on.

♦ Mutuals can ask for access. Don't be scared, because there should never be anything too crazy in there. It's only there because the internet is the wild west and some things I don't want just any villain to see every thing, you know? And it's ask-for-access instead of immediate-access because sometimes I write LONG posts that I don't want to sic on people without consent. Anything that's actually deeply personal or whatever actually has even more padlocks on it, and will only be seen by my most trusted advisors.

♦ If we haven't interacted in some time (if ever), I may unsubscribe. Whenever you come back to posting don't be afraid to poke me and say hi -- I'll most likely re-sub to you. If you find that you can't comment on my posts in order to poke me, then, well...

On InteractionCommenting: If you have something to say, don't be scared. I don't usually bite. I have it so people who don't have accounts can comment too, by the way. (Be nice so that it stays that way!)
Commenting on old entries: Frankly, this makes me even happier than comments on new posts. Just because a post is old doesn't mean I'm not still thinking about the topic. Hell, I might have new ideas or views to share on it.
Sending private messages: Fine with me 👍🏾
Minors subscribing: Sure, knock yourself out kid. I age-restrict posts as needed, so it'd be fine.
Linking my posts elsewhere: Feel free to, but it'd be nice if you told me about it.
Reposting things I created (not a post, but contents like illustrations or writing): Do not. Please link to the source post or (preferably) my website if you know it's there. You CAN, however, use my illusts as icons or banners or whatever if you credit me.
Who do I subscribe to?: Normally, barely anyone first, because I'm so shy with lots of dead interests. If you sub to me first, I might not sub back until you speak to me. Long story there, but basically: don't be scared to comment, seriously.
What makes me unsub?: Either you started posting a LOT about something I don't care about and we're not close enough for me to feel like I should stick around, or you expressed an opinion so bad I had to pack my bags. You can ask about this.

Currently...As of July 9th, 2026...
Playing: Angelique Special 2 (replay)
Watching: Hikaru no Go
Reading: The Dispossessed by Ursula K. Le Guin
Doing: Not what I'm supposed to be doing, that's for sure!
Fave Song: Tori no Uta by Lia


Feel free to use this entry as a general mailbox, for questions or comments or anything else. You can also private message me if you have a DW account. It's nice to have you around.
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So today I had an interview at Store A. I went to bed the night before late and spent a lot of time before leaving the house chilling because I had no hope and no enthusiasm. Last minute I remembered I'm supposed to bring my resume with me, but the printer in the house wouldn't connect to my laptop so I intended to use the local library's printer, but when I finally left the house I realized I had no time to go to the library. I resigned myself to showing up to Store A empty-handed. Maybe saying I don't have access to a printer would be excuse enough?

But that didn't up mattering, because I arrived a whole 10 minutes late anyways. After thinking hard on how to apologize in a chill but hireable way I walked in, got confused as hell because I had no idea where to go, and then worked up the courage to ask a random employee where the interview was. Eventually a manager came and took me to the office, and she didn't bring up at all my being late nor did I see any other interviewees (wasn't I supposed to be in a group??), but whatever, maybe she's willing to give me a chance and interview me alone so I don't interrupt the ongoing interview.

But she asked me who was supposed to interview me because it sure wasn't her, so I look it up on my phone... My interview was actually at Store B. The store next door that caters fills the exact same niche. I am stupid. But it's okay! I said, because I totally applied to this store too.

No, I did not. I applied to the Store A in my town, not the one in the next town over (where I was).

BUT EVEN SO! Without an appointment or even an application, she proceeded with the interview. AND!!!!!!! I got hired on the spot!(??????????). I just had to do the application when I got home (which I've done). I was like, no friggin' way, but she seemed quite happy to have stolen a possible employee from the next store over.

Conclusion: Just start walking into stores and lying about having an interview. You're welcome!
elyusion: (silly)
Got my new laptop. Rate my setup y'all:

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I got it yesterday, so I can confirm it works great. It feels so good using a computer that doesn't sound like an airplane taking off and doesn't have a crack in the screen, you don't even know.

However, my old laptop... has not turned on since I turned it off to go to work (I got called in right after making my last post, complaining works fr), but I'm going to keep pressing the power button every day until it turns on again, and this time For Real I'm going to transfer all my files and get back to my projects. Either that or I get the money for an SSD/HDD enclosure and loot the damn thing. And then I will put Linux on the SSD since I might as well at that point.

That is all! Bye now~
elyusion: (Default)
Two weeks ago my laptop died horribly and in agony, which threw off my entire routine and life. I do not like being locked to the small screen, especially for important decisions. But today ol' Lappy decided resurrection would be a good idea, so I have a PC again! A very temperamental one, so I need to focus on copying files to move them to a new laptop at some point. It's only been 2 weeks, but it feels like a month... and before my laptop fake-died I was really focused on making a website for a specific purpose I can't say publicly, so that's why I've barely been on Dreamwidth specifically. Hi everypony :3
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elyusion: orange tabby cat wearing headphones, screaming (actually probably yawning) (music)




Does anyone know if there's a secret third cover by a Japanese group to complete the trifecta? And if they're all covering some overseas song that I haven't heard before but will stumble into a few months or years down the line (100000 such cases)?

*May 29th edit because I entirely forgot to mention: I did learn, however, that the opening sample is from You Don't Love Me (No No No) by Dawn Penn.
...
I felt suspicious that that too was a sample, so I looked into it. That Dawn Penn song's opening is actually sampling Wake the Town by U-Roy, so who knows which one those later songs were using as a reference.*
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elyusion: lord forgive me (addiction)
i'm here, i'm alive, i just got fixated on something halfway through 3w4dw. please give me a moment (several days or maybe weeks lol)
elyusion: Um... well... bwehhh (bwehh)
but this entry isn't about that.

can someone who is in [community profile] vkotd tell me if next week's challenge should be "I Can't Believe It's Not VKei" or some other thing i dont have a name for yet, but it's sharing songs that you think are classics or hits or whatever you're withholding because you think you won't look cool with unique superior music taste for sharing it?

i think sharing things that aren't vk but could be if you're working with a very faulty definition is funny, but on the other hand i could see someone getting irked that they subbed to a vkei comm and theyre not getting vkei, even if temporarily. but the funny.....

if the funny wins then the classics challenge can happen later, but if funny loses then i'm not sure if i'll ever just run it later 😓 since it's a little off-topic
elyusion: (peek)
eMpTyVeeTV - "Music videos from the bleeding edge, our VJs host a variety of goth / industrial / darkwave / steampunk / synthpop / dark alternative music of all descriptions!" They do a stream every Wednesday at 5pm EST and a replay on Sundays at noon of submitted music videos. MTV for strange people.

Extra Song 2 (Animal Crossing New Horizons) - K.K. City Pop just dropped (or rather, will drop in the next AC game).

La'Cryma Christi are now available for streaming, I say, 7 months late and having already downloaded all their songs years ago anyways. But go show them some love if you can!! If you've never listened to them, may I humbly recommend Forest, Henseifuu, and With You?

Not a song, but an interview with Lucifer and Mana (GILLE' LOVES and Malice Mizer, respectively), which I first read a very long time ago and sought out again not-so-long ago because it really does mean everything to me. I would share it to a general vkei community if we had one. *manifesting*

And then for some reason I have a bunch of Gakupo songs saved? I would delete them all, but clearly the me of August 20, 2025 really really wanted to show you all this, so I'll honor his wishes even if I don't understand them.
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April

May. 3rd, 2026 04:40 pm
elyusion: (*sucks thumb peacefully*)
April 👍🏾

I forgot to say anything here, but I got my driver's license!! My life hasn't done a 180 or anything because I don't like driving, but it's all about the baby steps. I was scared to even pull out my parking spot alone, and now I can at least take multiple ways to work (5 minutes away btw) and back home without freaking out. I'm getting there.

I have officially been job hunting for 2 months with no luck and I have to start paying my student loan debt next month, so that's cool.

That stupid dress-up game I'd be swearing up and down I'd finish? I gave up on it. I couldn't take it anymore. BUT! I did finish it. In the sense that I gathered up what I did for it and published it online. So if you have a minute or two to waste, you can play the game that took me 5 months of picking up and putting down programs to make too. At least I can rest assured that if I ever wanted to make another one it won't take even half as long because I know what I'm doing now. :')

All the goals I publicly mentioned in last month's post, 1. drive myself to work, 2. not use any ad-funded or data-stealing socmeds, 3. not sleep next to my phone, and 4. get a good grade in 3W4DW, were met. Huzzah. #4 is subjective, but I definitely haven't failed so far, so I'm counting that goal as met.

Art Enjoyed )

My May goals are much simpler:

  1. Get a new/nother job for real this time (this one isn't entirely up to me)

  2. 2+ new chapters up of fanTL

  3. clean out old emails


because I need to relax. I need more free time so I can consume more media enjoy more art. There's so many novels, comics, games, albums, movies I need to be enjoying -- and that's not even getting into the studies I need to be doing. I feel like I'm really busy for someone who does fuck all.
elyusion: profile of woman with an updo, kimono, and folding fan (japan)
courtesy of [community profile] thefridayfive

1. Do you like to spend time outdoors?
はい、外の空気は気持ちいいね

2. What is your favorite flower?
ハイビスカスかアザレアかわからないんだ

3. Any favorite warm weather activities?
ポーチでロッキングチェアに座って日向ぼっこする

4. Have you ever kept a garden? If so, what did you grow?
いいえ、植物を触る度にすぐ死ぬ。

5. Do you know how to swim?
いいえ😔 でも海好きだ

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elyusion: Three Weeks for Dreamwidth (3w4dw)
I'm probablyyyy done for the day, sooo...
For the event I also have to do Community Thursday every Thursday. It'd be nice if I could do it all year, huh?

I posted (and probably commented at some point) in...
[community profile] 3weeks4dreamwidth - Recc Songs For Points
[community profile] fandom_on_dw - New Girly Japanese(ish) Fiction Community: Joseimuke
[community profile] beautifulmechanical - Paralyzed by Sleep Theory, as part of sharing music I discovered through Dreamwidth
[community profile] language_learning - For Japanese Learners..., which just links to an old entry I cleaned up a bit
[community profile] smallweb - Imageboards for the Layman (if anyone knows how I can make an imageboard without installing Docker or some shit, I'm taking all possible suggestions)

I commented (but didn't post) in...
[community profile] frillsofjustice
[community profile] fire_emblem
[community profile] vampiremedia
[community profile] drawesome

You should also check out...
[community profile] gifs_at_dw - I'm not a member or subscriber or anything but I do miss GIFs. Get GIF'ing bud.

And of course I posted and commented in [community profile] vkotd and [community profile] joseimuke; those are my comms ~_~; I wonder if I have to mention them every Thursday too. It kind of feels like attention-seeking... I'd hate for anyone who would want to join to not know they exist, but I don't want to continually bring them up to people who don't gaf either. You know how it is.
elyusion: erm ackshually (nerd)
I really need an icon related to gaming.

Give me more of your unpopular weirdos, classic game publishers
We can’t have an honest conversation about the great games we’re “supposed” to know and love if we don’t have an accurate idea of the average to compare them to. We can’t give the classics an authentic appraisal if we can’t actually see how they do things differently from the more ordinary examples they sat next to on shop shelves, or we end up assuming that creating an engaging 16-bit RPG must be easy because everything we collectively choose to revisit and elevate from that era managed it.

Throwing bouquets for this piece 💐💐💐

How the Religious Right Censor Morally Objectionable Content to Target Queer and Adult Media
But the playbook is practically the same: choose a game that is deeply morally objectionable and that very few people will defend in public, and stir up controversy over it. Soon, businesses that fear they might not comply with the rules will follow suit. Many well-intentioned people would then create petitions and organize movements against the game, which would create a chilling effect for future companies.

This is all a religious crusade from the very beginning, and I think many people played into it without realizing it.

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elyusion: (gay)
Most of my plans for Three Weeks on my personal journal include emptying out my bookmarks of all these links I've accrued but never found the time to share. Today's links are generally about sex, gender, and orientation.

⭕ the proposal to raise every boy as a girl
No blockquote. Just read it.

How To Figure Out If You're Trans
What if I’m not sure?

That’s normal. Pretty much none of us are 100% sure, because the only way to have that much confidence is to be told when you’re little by someone you trust with all your heart. As soon as you realize—really accept—that a person’s gender assigned at birth doesn’t have to be their gender, you’ll never be 100% certain again, whether you’re trans or cis.

And that’s okay.

I really, really like this one. For normal reasons.
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Icon Game

Apr. 27th, 2026 01:08 pm
elyusion: (purr)
Thank you [personal profile] stardust_rifle ^^
Reply to this post saying 'icon', and I will tell you my favorite icon of yours. Then post this to your own journal using your own favorite icon if you're one of those inhuman things that are actually capable of choosing between YOUR PRECIOUS BABIES! userpics.

It is hard to choose between my previous babies. So hard. The You're Under Arrest! girl is really cutesies and silly, but this icon really does get me every time I see it. I think I had been saving it for use somewhere even before I was active on here. I have so many silly Naruto icons even when it's not one of my favorite things because dammit, none of my other fandoms have XD so random type icons and no one makes them anymore
elyusion: (ears)
(I have to post every day for the event, you see.)
I updated my post for DW noobs, although I had to change a lot less than I thought I'd have to. I just changed some wording, added a details tag, and added two suggested communities ([community profile] fictional_fans and [community profile] agonyaunt).
elyusion: lord forgive me (addiction)
Doing everything late because I had work yesterday and it threw everything off for me @_@

I have an event going on [community profile] vkotd, so if you like visual kei and you want to find more aaaaaand you want a paid account, check it out! I also officially opened [community profile] joseimuke, which doesn't have an ~event~ going on for 3W4DW but I'm looking forward to what the people want to let out regardless.

As for my own journal, for day 1 I wanted to do an "about me"-type meme and a free doodles thing*. The about me comes first.

ToastyGhostey @/toastyghostey.newgrounds.com‬
everyone got a favorite
- fighting game character
- pokemon
- sanrio character
even if they dont actively look at any of those three.

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elyusion: wakamiya surprised icon (huh)
Title: Song Lang (2018)
Type: Movie
Poor Summary: Gangster x actor ambiguous romance/friendship thing. Also: what goes around comes around!! Unless it doesn't. #BreakTheCycle
Why Did I Watch This??: Besides the "I need to watch more movies to become human" thing, Farewell My Concubine is one of my favorite movies and I'm still chasing that high to this day.
Strongest Aspect: Pretty colors 🙂‍↕️
Favorite Part: Any scene on stage because Linh can really sing!! And apparently in real life he's a pop singer named Isaac, so We Will Be Listening.
Least Favorite Part: When Linh and Dung are talking on the rooftop. So corny. Who talks like that? Especially when they hadn't even been talking for a full 24 hours yet.
Blahblah: Everyone who compared this to Farewell My Concubine will pay.
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elyusion: personally, i love the blueberry ones (muffins)
Three Weeks for Dreamwidth is coming up! If you don't know what that is, it's basically 3 weeks of making Dreamwidth-only content to create more activity and love for the site. If possible, it's encouraged to link to Dreamwidth posts/communities/etc. on other sites to make people more interested in the place :] But you don't have to do that, or really anything if you don't want to, obviously. It runs from April 25th to May 15th. You can see what other people plan on doing @[community profile] 3weeks4dreamwidth.

As for me, among other things, I plan on encouraging more activity in my communities. So if you like visual kei or Japanese rock music or really edgy aesthetics or your demon hand that thirsts for blood, you should join [community profile] vkotd if you haven't already. I'm going to be holding a new challenge soon :3 And by the end of it you may be... rewarded. Or not. Depends.

Also I made [community profile] joseimuke on impulse the other day, which is completely unasked for and blank, but if you like shoujo and josei animanga or otome games or a little BL or some yuri or those phone games where the cast is 99% bishounen/seinen or etc. feel free to join early and see what I'm cooking. Everything you see there right now is very provisional.

Join my comms 🙏🏾 Make your friends join my comms 🙏🏾 Make your friends' friends join my comms 🙏🏾 Or don't, it's all good. I just want more activity on Dreamwidth -- so if you want to start a community, you should! Now's a pretty good time to start making one. Anyone else got plans for 3w4dw?
elyusion: erm ackshually (nerd)
Having a fun time with this website on classical Chinese for people who are studying it or are just really nosy. I'm glad to say I'm the latter and I'm having a blast ^o^ I really love using the little Chinese I know, plus sometimes the Japanese, plus obviously my English knowledge to read the translation and reverse-engineer how classical Chinese grammar probably works. Hope you enjoy the site too!!
elyusion: i hired this stocking to stare at you (stocking)
Title: Fight Club (1999)
Type: Movie
Poor Summary: Me when I start an underground boxing ring and become a terrorist because I'm bored
Why Did I Watch This??: Because everyone else has 🙂‍↕️ It's part of my journey to become a real human.
Strongest Aspect: Probably not actually the strongest, but I thought the CGI looked really cool.
Favorite Part: Not sure I have one... I just liked the entire movie. The twist reveal?
Least Favorite Part: None, but I suspect that during some rewatches I'll skip the first part of the movie, all the way up to when our protagonist meets Tyler.
Blahblah: These are the most intricate rituals which allow one to touch the skin of other men ever constructed.

Brad Pitt at the end of the movie looks like white Michael B. Jordan. Someone please agree with me.

Anyways, I see now why you might want to avoid a guy who says this is his favorite movie 😭 I would gladly rewatch it though; shit was crazy. And I want to read the book because I'm so curious how some of the things in the movie would work in writing.