I took a trip into the darkness

Number 1
I was never one to say what I was feeling
I pushed my emotions into a box
And locked it away
Until the box overflowed
And I blew up
I would take it out
On anything and anyone
Especially myself

Number 2
You tried to touch this world but you couldn't quite connect
You knew nobody would ever truly love you so you hid away
in a cocoon you made long ago
You tried to touch this world to see if you could really feel
anything besides what made you all alone

Number 3
Time runs away from me
It never stays to talk
I think it's afraid of me
but can't seem to figure out why

Number 4
Why do I fear something so mundane?So unworthy of fear.
What is the purpose of this besides torture?
Is that it ?Is it just my cross to bear?
Why is this a question at all?

Number 5
I'm just a dot in a barrel of dots in a ocean filled with tons of other barrels
My insignificance is staggering
But still I think I somehow matter
It seems purposteris
If I could laugh I would
But I'm just a dot in a barrel of dots in a ocean filled with tons of other barrels