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 ⭐️⭐️¾ (2.75 stars)

I think this is one of those books where timing really matters.

I started following Evie Meg on YouTube several years ago, and it was her videos that convinced me to buy this book back in 2021. It's been sitting on my TBR ever since, and I can't help wondering if I'd have enjoyed it much more had I read it then.

The biggest issue for me was that very little of the book felt new. Having followed Evie's content for years, I was already familiar with many of the stories, experiences, and discussions she shares here. Rather than expanding on them, the book often felt like a written version of content I'd already consumed elsewhere.

I also found the writing style a little younger than I expected. It's warm, conversational, and very accessible, which I think will appeal to younger readers or those discovering Evie for the first time, but it wasn't quite what I was looking for.

One thing that surprised me was the balance of topics. Given the subtitle, What I'd Like You to Know About Living with Tourette's, I expected the book to focus primarily on Tourette syndrome. Instead, a significant portion explores anxiety, mental health, and functional neurological disorder. Those experiences are, of course, an important part of Evie's story, but I did come away feeling that the subtitle promised a more Tourette-focused book than this actually is.

The standout section for me was the Tourette's diary. Reading page after page of tics, interruptions, and exhaustion was genuinely harrowing, and it communicated the relentless reality of living with Tourette syndrome more powerfully than any explanation could.

Overall, I think I'd recommend this most to people who are new to Evie's work. For me, I'd already experienced much of this story through her social media, and I finished the book wishing it had either explored those experiences in greater depth or focused more closely on Tourette syndrome itself.

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I've noticed something while writing these monthly posts: my goals have quietly changed shape. They’ve moved away from anything that feels like strict productivity or measurement, and more toward simply paying attention to what I actually enjoy doing. It feels less like “doing more” and more like “living more gently inside the things I already love,” which honestly seems like a much better direction.

June was a genuinely lovely month. I finished three books, which feels like a comfortable and satisfying reading pace rather than anything pressured or competitive. I didn’t really manage the “blog a little more” goal in any structured way, but I did show up here and on Instagram a few times, and that felt enough. I’m trying to be more mindful about not letting posting online become another obligation sitting on top of everything else.

There’s also been a small but meaningful return to games and routines that feel grounding. Palia, in particular, has quietly become part of my evenings again, and I’d forgotten how calming it is to slip back into that world after a long day. It’s been a month of soft habits like that: tennis most weeks, starting swimming (still slightly surreal to admit), and enjoying the rhythm of grass court season in the background.

I said I wanted a slower, more restful summer, and June really felt like the beginning of that settling-in.

There’s also been a quiet return to writing in a more creative, less structured way. I’ve got a few fanfiction pieces that have been sitting half-finished for a while, and I’d like to gently focus on actually finishing a couple of them this month instead of leaving them in perpetual draft state. Not as a goal with pressure attached, but more as an invitation to reconnect with writing in a way that feels instinctive again.

So July feels simple.

Read a few books. Watch Wimbledon and keep playing tennis. Keep spending evenings in Palia. Share a little more online, if it feels right in the moment. And make space for finishing and possibly posting a couple of writing pieces I’ve been sitting with for too long.

Nothing needs to be pushed. Nothing needs to be optimised.

Just a continuation of summer as it’s been unfolding: books, sunshine, movement, quiet evenings, and a bit of writing for the sake of it.

And that feels like enough.

June 2026 Reading Wrap Up

Jul. 1st, 2026 09:37 pm
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June was one of those months that looks very different depending on which numbers you choose to look at.

StoryGraph says:
📚 3 books
📖 1,005 pages
Which... sure. Respectable enough.

But if you'd asked me what June felt like, I wouldn't have answered with reading stats.

I'd have said:
🎓 I finished another year of university.
🎾 I watched an unreasonable amount of tennis (zero regrets).
🐱 I completely fell back into Palia.
✍️ And, maybe most importantly, I started writing fanfiction again.

It's funny how easy it is to think a month has been "unproductive" if the reading count is lower than usual.

Except... I don't think June was unproductive at all.
It was joyful.

The reading was good, too.
Cherry Cheesecake Murder reminded me how comforting a cosy mystery can be.
Deadline was everything I love about outbreak fiction and exactly the sort of science-heavy thriller that makes my little epidemiology-loving heart ridiculously happy.
Under the Duvet was a lighter read that felt like sitting down for a chat with Marian Keyes.

Mostly, though, I'm leaving June feeling grateful.
Not because I read loads.
Because I remembered that books are part of my life - not the measure of it.

Currently: Fics, Finals & Forehands

Jun. 28th, 2026 01:05 pm
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📚 Reading:
I finished Under the Duvet by Marian Keyes and Cherry Cheesecake Murder by Joanne Fluke. A very 'cosy in completely different directions' kind of week.
 
Next up are My Nonidentical Twin by Evie Meg, Into the Drowning Deep by Mira Grant, and The Secret Collector by Abigail Johnson.
 
🎧 Listening To:
I’ve been listening to Spotify’s 'Your Top Songs of [year]' playlists - the ones that pull together your most-played tracks from each year. It’s been weirdly fascinating hearing the shifts in what I was listening to and when, like a little musical time capsule of different versions of me.
 
📺 Watching:
Still making my way through Pointless, and mostly tennis beyond that. Grass season has fully taken over normal television habits.
 
🎾 Tennis:
The Wimbledon draw came out and I’m very excited.
 
Cruz Hewitt won the U17 tournament at the Giorgio Armani Tennis Classic.
Alejandro Davidovich Fokina picked up his first title in Mallorca, which felt long overdue. 
Karolína Muchová won Bad Homburg, although sadly only after Naomi Osaka had to retire with a foot injury.
Zizou Bergs picked up his first title too, in Eastbourne. 
 
🖊Writing:
I posted chapter 10 of the Priest!Simone AU (and people seem to really like it, which is always a relief).
 
Kinktober 2026 prompts are out, as are the tennis rare pair promptfest prompts, so I’ve entered full planning mode for both - mostly fills, outlines, and letting ideas collide until something sticks.
 
I also started writing a Darren/Jannik spanking fic which begins with the line: “Have you ever spanked anyone before?” so that’s where my brain is currently at.
 
🏫 Studying:
No actual studying is happening right now, but I have assembled a little summer reading list for my next module on the Roman Empire. I don’t know much about it yet, but the beauty of the OU is that you don't need to. 
 
That's not stopping me though. So far the pile includes Rotten Romans (Horrible Histories never lets me down), Very Short Introduction to the Roman Empire, DK’s Visual History of Ancient Rome, Roman Empire for Dummies, Rome: An Empire's Story, and I’ve also got Mary Beard and Tom Holland lined up because I feel like I should at least attempt to be a responsible adult about this.
 
💭 Thinking About:
Job interviews on Monday and Tuesday, which has shifted my brain slightly into 'prepare but also try not to catastrophise' mode. I’m hopeful, but also very aware of how weird and uncertain the next stretch of time is going to be.
 
Also: the weather shift. I loved the heatwave while it lasted, but the sudden drop in temperature has done my joints absolutely no favours. Apparently my body is very committed to being a barometer.
 
📅 Planning:
A mix of practical and fannish things: job interviews at the start of the week, then hopefully a return to fills for prompt challenges once my brain calms down again.
 
I’m also working on plans for StoryGraph Reads the World reading challenge, which is giving me a nice excuse to assemble a very satisfying mix of fiction, history, culture and tennis books. It feels like controlled chaos, which is my favourite kind of reading project.
 
💖 Loving:
My purple and green Wimbledon hair, which is honestly making me disproportionately happy every time I catch sight of it.

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Jun. 25th, 2026 11:36 pm
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