So it was the USA's 250th anniversary yesterday. Woo... It is probably totally unsurprising that I (a left-leaning queer woman of color) do not have a high opinion of this country. My parents, however, do, and wanted to come see me to celebrate. I said well okay as long as you (physical therapists) tell me how to get rid of this fucking back pain. We ended up going to REI and getting me a new backpack because my old one was definitely contributing to the problems. My new backpack is a day pack from Osprey which definitely has more of a hiking/outdoorsy look. This doesn't particularly jive with my style, and I think the chest and hip straps will probably make me look a bit dorky, but it's better than seriously fucking my already-problematic back up. The hip strap is the biggest improvement, as it helps to distribute the weight to the legs. In addition, the design of the backpack means it sits flatter and closer to my body and is generally lighter all around. Once I put it on and strapped in, I realized... hey, wait, I can stand up straight without needing to lean forward to counteract the weight of the backpack! So hopefully that improves things in the long run. Man, my back suddenly decided to start killing me AGAIN just now... fuckfuckfuck this is horrible I should go cut myself ugh I hate this at least maybe then I can control the pain... whatever.
Honestly I was pretty hexcited about the whole shopping trip we did. First I got a sick new power bank that magnetizes to the back of your phone and wirelessly charges it. I'm majorly excited about this because it means (A) I won't have to worry about juggling a power bank along with my phone, since it just hugs the back of my phone tightly (B) the new power bank is way lighter (C) I don't need a cable to use it. I also got a pair of sandals for my beach trip with wolf bf next weekend! They're by crocs so they're made of waterproof rubber material but they're not, like. clogs. They're cute black strappy sandals with a platform and they're actually super comfortable. Um I also bought some tank tops/camis from Uniqlo because the heat has been fucking impossible and I realized I don't have enough sleeveless tops. And a top from fucking lululemon. I don't want to be that girl who wears lululemon in dance class but my mom had like a $200 gift card or some shit so I ended up buying a shirt. It's not activewear at all, it's a short sleeved cropped button up top that sits really nicely on me. Also I get to be a slut and unbutton it as much as possible. God I really wanted to go into Windsor because there were some hella cute and hella slutty outfits in the windows but I resisted because I don't need to spend non-gift card money on more fucking clothes...
Unfortunately I somehow managed to wreck my sleep schedule all over again. At least my time was spent doing creatively productive stuff. I fleshed out my DnD character a bit. She's an AU version of sickgirl/Syrin, who's plural and has an alter named Luer that's her child self. Then, an alien invades Syrin's mind. Syrin, remembering when Luer formed, mistakes the alien for being another alter, and doesn't believe the alien when she tells the truth about being from another planet and having possessed Syrin to destroy her mind and turn her into a puppet for alienkind. It's like a Cassandra truth situation, where we as the audience know that the alien is telling the complete truth but Syrin can't even conceptualize it because space aliens aren't even a pop culture thing in her (typical DnD fantasy type) world. I love dramatic irony.
I also properly wrote up an information doc about
snuff porn studio au (Warning: Should be obviously NSFL from the title lol). It's an AU version of my placeless girls (a group of OCs including sickgirl from above that don't have a set canon and are mostly dolls for me to play with) that's a disturbing (yet also absurd and surreal) story about horrific sexual exploitation. I'm actually quite proud of it so do read it if you're interested. Many people I've shown the document to have read it and Felix seems to be a fan favorite, which I'm kind of touched by... I feel like I haven't been giving her enough love, so I drew a
fully-rendered piece of her (artistic nudity, no private parts visible besides part of her chest).
I talked about queer issues and politics with a friend today, which was kind of depressing but kind of cathartic. We also discussed satire because I (satire enthusiast, and comedy enthusiast more generally) got pissed off at people not knowing the definition of satire, mixing it up with sarcasm and parody. Say it with me kids: Satire is a genre of fiction that uses hexaggeration, irony, and ridicule to lampoon the ugly injustices of society. Satire is NOT saying one thing when you mean another (that's sarcasm) or a retelling of a story that pokes fun at it (that's parody).
Speaking of satire, I finished up reading Oryx and Crake by Margaret Atwood and... by fucking god, that was a doozy. I genuinely gasped out loud at one moment and read the rest of the book with one hand over my mouth. I recommend this book, although it gets heavy and depressing. It's also horrifying in that it feels so current. Like, when I was reading this book I was thinking, "god, this is what our society is going to be like in 20 years...". Well, it's a slight hexaggeration, but horrifying nonetheless.