AMA july but six days late
Jul. 6th, 2026 07:23 pm![[personal profile]](/post-https-www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nautastellarisoomf asuraid has her own ama july activity, so i might as well join the bandwagon early. i've been drawing so much lately that i feel bad for not sharing much writing.
so let's give it a shot! :D
feel free to pick a date and ask me a question or two.
asuraid has her own ama july activity, so i might as well join the bandwagon early. i've been drawing so much lately that i feel bad for not sharing much writing.so let's give it a shot! :D
feel free to pick a date and ask me a question or two.
- What fictional animal is your favourite, and why? Could also be a real animal!! - asuraid
- Which fictional character do you want to put through a blender (lovingly/hatingly) and why? (I say this as someone who has a beloved character I adore and my love language for him is wishing he'd covered in his own blood) - asuraid
artfight...
Jul. 6th, 2026 03:51 pmnautastellarisi'm honestly terrified of joining since my skills aren't exactly... attack worthy?
but i have a profile here if anyone wants to attack! revenges are guaranteed.
( my first attack )
i wish that artfight would allow writing since i'm visually impaired and drawing isn't always easy, especially since so many people post images without alt text. :(
but i have a profile here if anyone wants to attack! revenges are guaranteed.
( my first attack )
i wish that artfight would allow writing since i'm visually impaired and drawing isn't always easy, especially since so many people post images without alt text. :(
biiiig art dump
Jul. 5th, 2026 09:30 pmnautastellarisi spent all day drawing ocs for other people on toyhouse, since i posted an art freebie on the forum. something i noticed is the more i draw, the lower the quality, and i have no idea why it's happening. but honestly, i'm super proud of some of these.
( Read more... )
you can see my art examples on my toyhouse profile! you do need an account, but i have premium so i can give out two invites per week! just let me know!
( Read more... )
you can see my art examples on my toyhouse profile! you do need an account, but i have premium so i can give out two invites per week! just let me know!
Media consumption: Niwatori Fighter
Jul. 5th, 2026 08:35 pmtropicsbear⚠️ Series warnings (not discussed in detail in this entry): Chickens boinking (with humans voice acting this in an exaggerated, humorous way); non-sexual nudity (though the demons don’t have genitalia); blood
Personal rating 8/10
Niwatori Fighter first crossed my radar when I spotted the manga a couple of years ago as I idly browsed through the shelves of Fully Booked. I was immediately intrigued because it reminded me of a conversation I had with some of my college animanga orgmates way back when about local games and/or sports that we thought would make for good animanga (in this case, sabong/cockfights).
(Disclaimer: None of us are into sabong; it just came up because it’s very much a part of life here. Like, it’s very normal to see vacant lots in residential areas with little individual coops for gamecocks.
A quick peek at the blurb on the back of the manga revealed that the story wasn’t about anything as mundane as a rooster fighting other roosters; it was about a rooster fighting against demons and saving humanity. V01 was instantly added to my TBR pile because it sounded like the exact combination of silliness and action that I enjoy.
Imagine my surprise when I saw a trailer for an anime adaptation earlier this year. I didn’t know if the manga was any good or not—because my TBR pile is eternal and unmovable—but the premise seemed to me like the kind of thing that the general public wouldn’t be into enough to gain momentum for an anime. (As of writing, I haven’t really seen any posts about the series aside from a couple of mentions on ![[community profile]](/post-https-www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png){kind=small}
anime_manga.)
I’ve completed S01 and my verdict is: I enjoyed this much more than I thought I would, and I’m glad I managed to convince a couple of officemates to give this a shot so I have someone to talk to with about it 😂
Niwatori Fighter, in a nutshell, is about Keiji the rooster’s quest for revenge on the demon that killed his sister, Sara. Demons in this world are closer to kaiju than the demons in Kimetsu no Yaiba and are born from humans’ extreme negative emotions.
( Cut for length and spoilers. )
All that to say, I hope this gets a S02 and the manga has moved up my TBR pile.
Random stuff:
- I like that people randomly turning into demons seems to be par for the course. Authorities have even got pre-recorded emergency broadcasts that they play when a new demon pops ups.
- Endlessly amused by that episode where Elizabeth outed Keiji as a “manwhore” and all the pigeons that thought he was cool were immediately turned off 😂
Pomni the Human Philosophist
Jul. 4th, 2026 04:41 pmacetiff12I had a strange yet interesting dream last night about Pomni. There was a bright, pretty movie styled like a Studio Ghibli movie about this huge, otherworldly female dragon or wolf or kitsune that was trying to protect the world from this huge, otherworldly male wolf.
Pomni turned out to be the key to saving the world because she was created by the dragon/wolf/kitsune long ago, who hid some data files within her that the big bad wolf was threatened by. For some reason I think they were either .bak, .bat, or maybe .bin files. And her full, true name was Pomni the Human Philosophist. She didn't know anything about her origins at first or why she was the wolf's greatest target, but she was determined to get answers and do good in any way she could.
The world is eventually saved and the final scene happens in a beige room with a big jack-in-the-box toy that Pomni bursts out of and does a little cheery dance. The room also has many Gummigoo plushies and posters. 😆
Pomni turned out to be the key to saving the world because she was created by the dragon/wolf/kitsune long ago, who hid some data files within her that the big bad wolf was threatened by. For some reason I think they were either .bak, .bat, or maybe .bin files. And her full, true name was Pomni the Human Philosophist. She didn't know anything about her origins at first or why she was the wolf's greatest target, but she was determined to get answers and do good in any way she could.
The world is eventually saved and the final scene happens in a beige room with a big jack-in-the-box toy that Pomni bursts out of and does a little cheery dance. The room also has many Gummigoo plushies and posters. 😆
pantsing sucks
Jul. 2nd, 2026 11:44 pmnautastellarisi've always been the biggest pantser when it comes to long fics.
i can hardly sit down and outline because to me, it just kind of takes away the fun and desire to write, but i really wish that i could outline! i've tried it before, but it's just a painfully slow process. i like to write as i go, i don't like to plan things when my writing is meant to be for fun.
but then i end up not updating a fic for months because of writer's block.
i'm trying to rewrite my very first identity v fic, ars moriendi, which was my magnum opus at one point in time. it's a forensics fic, and i once had 12 chapters pre-written but then i completely lost the plotline and ended up writing something entirely different because my brain tends to go in 400 different directions.
i'm basically just going through each of my drafts and cherrypicking what plot points i want, the dialogue i want to keep, etc. it's a slow process, and i did write AM during a hypomanic episode back in december of last year so it's been MONTHS. i did attempt to rewrite the entire chapter one, and i even added new characters (ithaqua, aesop), but i have a tendency to write long chapters which is... not ideal for many. i might try to split up chapters and aim for about 2k at most, maybe 3k depending.
also, i want to write in other characters that're "new" to me, specifically antonio, since AM does have some light supernatural themes but they're not very prominent. (i won't spoil yet.) i'm also trying to consider who the best antagonist would be for the fic, since i have a hard time really making anyone in idv an antagonist. everyone in the game is very morally grey, and there are certain plotlines where they can fit as an antagonist, but for AM, it's a little hard since it's about murder lol.
i'm still kind of trying to figure this bit out. i might consult my friends or gf for this one.
and so i'm sitting here trying to outline the fifth (or sixth? god only knows) draft of AM, and my brain just wants to write. ;-; i do have some other outlines, namely for my joscarl the queen's knight au, as well as a silly norton-centric love triangle fic.
so right now i just have this cast of characters:
main characters
othis is just the main list i have for my current draft that might change.
- joseph (main protagonist, forensic photographer)
- alva (love interest, physician)
- orpheus (lead detective/PI)
- norton (forensic geologist/suspect)
other roles
- frederick (role is a spoiler, but let's just say he's having a bad time)
- edgar (died like a true knight victim; orpheus suspects a "transaction gone wrong")
- ithaqua (joseph's acquaintance)
forensics unit
this isn't set-in-stone except maybe mike, aesop, and florian's roles.
- aesop (pathologist)
- ada (psychologist)
- antonio (audio analyst)
- luca (alleged paranormal investigator)
- florian (arson/fire investigator, volunteer firefighter)
- mike (ballistics expert)
i also sent this to my partner:
so... yeah! this is just a stream of my thoughts and ideas for AM, and i might think on this for a bit. my partner offered to co-write and beta read which is a huge help, and hopefully i'll rewrite this fic and publish it. i really do miss the original AM plot, but i lost it completely. i'm not sure if i'll return to the original supernatural element type (with the mannequins) but i'll think on it.
i've never written for some of these characters before so it might be a pain in the ass to try and portray them. i hate when my own writing is OOC but sometimes it kind of has to happen for the plot.
i'll probably keep working on the outline and maybe i'll move some old subplots to this outline i have currently, as well as maybe add a few new little things. there's one scene in my head i want to keep, with alva and joseph being told not to investigate frederick's house and orpheus shows up and takes something from frederick's dresser drawer.
(i need to seriously write this all down somewhere else too.)
i can hardly sit down and outline because to me, it just kind of takes away the fun and desire to write, but i really wish that i could outline! i've tried it before, but it's just a painfully slow process. i like to write as i go, i don't like to plan things when my writing is meant to be for fun.
but then i end up not updating a fic for months because of writer's block.
i'm trying to rewrite my very first identity v fic, ars moriendi, which was my magnum opus at one point in time. it's a forensics fic, and i once had 12 chapters pre-written but then i completely lost the plotline and ended up writing something entirely different because my brain tends to go in 400 different directions.
i'm basically just going through each of my drafts and cherrypicking what plot points i want, the dialogue i want to keep, etc. it's a slow process, and i did write AM during a hypomanic episode back in december of last year so it's been MONTHS. i did attempt to rewrite the entire chapter one, and i even added new characters (ithaqua, aesop), but i have a tendency to write long chapters which is... not ideal for many. i might try to split up chapters and aim for about 2k at most, maybe 3k depending.
also, i want to write in other characters that're "new" to me, specifically antonio, since AM does have some light supernatural themes but they're not very prominent. (i won't spoil yet.) i'm also trying to consider who the best antagonist would be for the fic, since i have a hard time really making anyone in idv an antagonist. everyone in the game is very morally grey, and there are certain plotlines where they can fit as an antagonist, but for AM, it's a little hard since it's about murder lol.
i'm still kind of trying to figure this bit out. i might consult my friends or gf for this one.
and so i'm sitting here trying to outline the fifth (or sixth? god only knows) draft of AM, and my brain just wants to write. ;-; i do have some other outlines, namely for my joscarl the queen's knight au, as well as a silly norton-centric love triangle fic.
so right now i just have this cast of characters:
main characters
othis is just the main list i have for my current draft that might change.
- joseph (main protagonist, forensic photographer)
- alva (love interest, physician)
- orpheus (lead detective/PI)
- norton (forensic geologist/suspect)
other roles
- frederick (role is a spoiler, but let's just say he's having a bad time)
- edgar (
- ithaqua (joseph's acquaintance)
forensics unit
this isn't set-in-stone except maybe mike, aesop, and florian's roles.
- aesop (pathologist)
- ada (psychologist)
- antonio (audio analyst)
- luca (alleged paranormal investigator)
- florian (arson/fire investigator, volunteer firefighter)
- mike (ballistics expert)
i also sent this to my partner:
i would really love that! and of course i'll credit you for all of the help. see i have the entire plot in my mind, and i know where and how i want the fic to go, my idea is [SPOILERS]. the original draft had (and will have) supernatural elements (i was kind of thinking that maybe ghosts are involved which was my original idea from the very first draft; frederick technically is/was a ghost but not like... the see-through type? he is corporeal though.) and i also want to throw in a few other new characters in the forensics unit.
so far outside of the main four i just have for the forensics unit aesop (pathologist who does autopsies, probably a major character), antonio (audio analyst, minor role but a pretty important one since the killer will send disturbing messages to alva in the fic), florian (arson investigator, so not too different from canon) and mike (ballistics expert, i was thinking of adding joker originally into the forensics unit but i also might need a witness character). since i'm adding supernatural elements i was thinking of changing luca's role to a paranormal investigator who isn't taken seriously until he's reluctantly added to the unit.
uhhh, i was thinking that joseph can see certain people that the others can't, like in my new draft that's something i definitely want to keep (along with the subplot with nortpheus and the hematite).
i'm yapping but i've been thinking about this fic for months.
so... yeah! this is just a stream of my thoughts and ideas for AM, and i might think on this for a bit. my partner offered to co-write and beta read which is a huge help, and hopefully i'll rewrite this fic and publish it. i really do miss the original AM plot, but i lost it completely. i'm not sure if i'll return to the original supernatural element type (with the mannequins) but i'll think on it.
i've never written for some of these characters before so it might be a pain in the ass to try and portray them. i hate when my own writing is OOC but sometimes it kind of has to happen for the plot.
i'll probably keep working on the outline and maybe i'll move some old subplots to this outline i have currently, as well as maybe add a few new little things. there's one scene in my head i want to keep, with alva and joseph being told not to investigate frederick's house and orpheus shows up and takes something from frederick's dresser drawer.
(i need to seriously write this all down somewhere else too.)
ai killed roleplay culture
Jul. 2nd, 2026 02:30 pmnautastellarisi was thinking about how there are places like c.AI where people have basically dropped roleplay for to move over there.
fandom is insanely lonely, i get it. i can't find anyone to roleplay identity v with because my ideas are always canon divergent and my portrayals always lean towards a personal interpretation. and i once was so fucking desperate to RP that i went onto reddit to look. biggest mistake of my life.
ai really fucked over RP culture.
i'll never understand people who give up on their friends or loved ones for a non-sentient robot that replies with things that it thinks you want to hear. like, i just wish that it didn't feel like finding a needle in a haystack. i joined an RP server the other day, and pretty much all of them were inactive and dead, and/or they used gen AI.
i dunno... i miss staying up all night anticipating replies from my friends who lived +12 hours ahead of me. i'll stick to writing my novel for now. :/
fandom is insanely lonely, i get it. i can't find anyone to roleplay identity v with because my ideas are always canon divergent and my portrayals always lean towards a personal interpretation. and i once was so fucking desperate to RP that i went onto reddit to look. biggest mistake of my life.
ai really fucked over RP culture.
i'll never understand people who give up on their friends or loved ones for a non-sentient robot that replies with things that it thinks you want to hear. like, i just wish that it didn't feel like finding a needle in a haystack. i joined an RP server the other day, and pretty much all of them were inactive and dead, and/or they used gen AI.
i dunno... i miss staying up all night anticipating replies from my friends who lived +12 hours ahead of me. i'll stick to writing my novel for now. :/
can we please do not
Jul. 1st, 2026 02:34 pmnautastellarisone of my longest fics is a jokermike fic that i haven't updated since february because:
1.) it was a winter time/channukah fic
2.) i just... lost motivation because of the pressure i've been feeling, asking myself if people will like the next chapter.
the same is happening with my other long fics, i'm worried that people will give up on my fics because i'm either too slow, or too disappointing. one of my biggest fears is someone taking all of my hard work and just throwing it into an LLM.
which reminds me of a video i watched last night, about a woman whose book idea was put into an LLM by someone else and later emailed to her as a "gift."
it's not an unheard of phenomena, people stealing incomplete or orphaned works to give it an "ending" which is just... heartless. someone put so much time and love into a fic, and while it is sad to see a favorite discontinue, it does NOT give you an excuse to steal someone's beloved fic just to satisfy your selfish algorithm-brained cravings! we're NOT content creators, for fuck's sake! if the author gives you permission to transform their work, THEN USE YOUR OWN FUCKING IMAGINATION AND BRAIN POWER.
my friendovermore posted his thoughts on something related; how somebody created an AO3 skin that "detects" AI. honestly, i don't know how to feel about it. like... on one hand, i guess it's fair to want to know what exactly it is you're reading, and if the work was legitimate. on the other hand, people are getting harassed and mistreated for it.
i don't ever condone harassment, but i deeply condemn the use of AI in any shape or capacity. i'm reluctant with even using spellcheck nowadays because a LOT of them (like grammarly) use AI now and i'd rather have my raw, ugly voice instead of something polished by an LLM that damages our waters and harms peoples' jobs.
i think that just by doing the bare minimum of tagging LLM works or AI generated "fics" then we wouldn't need a skin for this shit.
also, i took down MANY of my works due to paranoia about people scraping my works for AI. AI detectors are bullshit, because i've read articles about how these "detectors" think that novels like frankenstein were "written" by AI. mary shelly is rolling in her grave right now.
writers are not content creators. for many fic writers, it's our OUTLET. i'm disabled and can't work due to being very sickly, so writing is my only escape. other people write because it's fun. i understand those who want stats like kudos, but if you're not having fun, then honestly... do something that you will have fun with!
i don't know squat about the heated rivalry fandom (which is what the doc links to), but all i know is, either tag your shit so i can block you, or stop using LLMs and being a lazy nuisance to us actual writers.
1.) it was a winter time/channukah fic
2.) i just... lost motivation because of the pressure i've been feeling, asking myself if people will like the next chapter.
the same is happening with my other long fics, i'm worried that people will give up on my fics because i'm either too slow, or too disappointing. one of my biggest fears is someone taking all of my hard work and just throwing it into an LLM.
which reminds me of a video i watched last night, about a woman whose book idea was put into an LLM by someone else and later emailed to her as a "gift."
it's not an unheard of phenomena, people stealing incomplete or orphaned works to give it an "ending" which is just... heartless. someone put so much time and love into a fic, and while it is sad to see a favorite discontinue, it does NOT give you an excuse to steal someone's beloved fic just to satisfy your selfish algorithm-brained cravings! we're NOT content creators, for fuck's sake! if the author gives you permission to transform their work, THEN USE YOUR OWN FUCKING IMAGINATION AND BRAIN POWER.
my friend
overmore posted his thoughts on something related; how somebody created an AO3 skin that "detects" AI. honestly, i don't know how to feel about it. like... on one hand, i guess it's fair to want to know what exactly it is you're reading, and if the work was legitimate. on the other hand, people are getting harassed and mistreated for it. i don't ever condone harassment, but i deeply condemn the use of AI in any shape or capacity. i'm reluctant with even using spellcheck nowadays because a LOT of them (like grammarly) use AI now and i'd rather have my raw, ugly voice instead of something polished by an LLM that damages our waters and harms peoples' jobs.
i think that just by doing the bare minimum of tagging LLM works or AI generated "fics" then we wouldn't need a skin for this shit.
also, i took down MANY of my works due to paranoia about people scraping my works for AI. AI detectors are bullshit, because i've read articles about how these "detectors" think that novels like frankenstein were "written" by AI. mary shelly is rolling in her grave right now.
writers are not content creators. for many fic writers, it's our OUTLET. i'm disabled and can't work due to being very sickly, so writing is my only escape. other people write because it's fun. i understand those who want stats like kudos, but if you're not having fun, then honestly... do something that you will have fun with!
i don't know squat about the heated rivalry fandom (which is what the doc links to), but all i know is, either tag your shit so i can block you, or stop using LLMs and being a lazy nuisance to us actual writers.
june wrap-up
Jul. 1st, 2026 09:18 amnautastellarisfinally, the end has come. some of the fanfic links will lead to NSFW, so viewer discretion advised.
i can't really say how much i wrote this month, but i did post a couple of drabbles and a short introspective one shot forficwip's fairytale week, good stepsister, which is inspired loosely by cinderella III and the original disney movie.
i also posted a few drabbles, swimming is a ficwip prompt fill, and i also stumbled across an old little drabble of my two ocs, misha and sasha, called bite. i also updated one of my long fics, someone to hate, though i'm... not super happy with this.
the drabble i'm proud of most right now is vacate et scire, which is also a ficwip prompt-based drabble.
for theintoabar event, i was assigned to write a fic with mike meeting dimitri (from fire emblem) in a bar (my life's a mess, but i call it mine. i was super stuck with this fic, and writer's block was super unkind to me, but managed to get something out. i think it's a cute little short fic. i might have gotten the prompt a bit wrong since i wrote from dimitri's pov, something i haven't done in a long while.
for the rewind event, i wrote a long fic of my OTP under the spitefest category, spatium. (you'll have to pry latin titles from my cold, dead hands.) this fic is very explicit and self-indulgent/self-centered, so be aware of the tags.
finally, this was originally going to be another ficwip submission for tiny ships fleet, but i decided against it. thus always to tyrants is just a random one shot that i ended up writing out of nowhere, and it's orpheus/joseph which is surprisingly a super niche pairing on AO3, even in the CN fandom. but i was one of the very few to have written for the ship.
anyway, i think that's all of the posting i did. i've been struggling with brain fog and writer's block, but this month was pretty successful.
you can see my progress on my storygraph. so far i've made a huge amount of progress reading too old for this, which is actually getting super intriguing. the entire book is about medium-paced, but once you hit the 30th chapter, it really draws you in. i love the main character and how she actually feels like an old woman rambling about her past days. i don't have any grandparents anymore, and i don't remember any of them, so this book is honestly super fun.
i've barely made any progress on woman down. i hate the cheating trope, but i was so curious about what people on booktube were saying about this being a "self-insert" that i had to dive in. i normally don't like 1st person POV, and avoid it as much as i can, but i've made some exceptions (namely too old for this). but it's... not horrible? i don't like it, but it's a book that i'll finish since i don't like to leave things unfinished. i know there are people who DNF books, but honestly, i paid for it so i might as well get use out of it before donating it.
i actually... did a little bit of RP, but it didn't end up going anywhere. i'm working on my worldbuilding for my 5k fantasy AU, which my partner and i have roleplayed a little bit of before.
i... honestly cannot remember anything except the trip to buc-ee's.
i might get rid of the "roleplay" activity and replace it with something else, maybe travel? since i did travel to buc-ee's and it was a four hour road trip. we went for my belated birthday, and it was honestly the most fun i've had in a long while. i really hope to go back next year, or even for christmas lol (when the holidays are over). i don't even wanna think about christmas yet though.
i've been super fixated on my ocs as of late, and i think that's probably why i've been struggling with my writer's block for identity v. it's not burnout from the fandom, though the fandom sucks, but it might just be that i've been wanting to write with my own ideas and these ideas don't really... fit idv? i have a lot of ideas regarding high/epic fantasy and my original indie novel is heavily influenced by epic fantasies like runescape, LOTR, skyrim, etc. and idv is more of the historical victorian fantasy genre, which is fine in itself but my brain really wants to default to medieval swords & sorcery.
i did have an old fantasy fic with elf!joseph, but i lost interest. maybe i'll pick it up for the 5k.
which speaking of, it begins today officially, but posting doesn't begin until august. i really hope i can be patient for that long, since i LOVE to post immediately after finishing something.
so... yeah! i think that sums it all up.
writing
i can't really say how much i wrote this month, but i did post a couple of drabbles and a short introspective one shot for
ficwip's fairytale week, good stepsister, which is inspired loosely by cinderella III and the original disney movie. i also posted a few drabbles, swimming is a ficwip prompt fill, and i also stumbled across an old little drabble of my two ocs, misha and sasha, called bite. i also updated one of my long fics, someone to hate, though i'm... not super happy with this.
the drabble i'm proud of most right now is vacate et scire, which is also a ficwip prompt-based drabble.
for the
intoabar event, i was assigned to write a fic with mike meeting dimitri (from fire emblem) in a bar (my life's a mess, but i call it mine. i was super stuck with this fic, and writer's block was super unkind to me, but managed to get something out. i think it's a cute little short fic. i might have gotten the prompt a bit wrong since i wrote from dimitri's pov, something i haven't done in a long while.for the rewind event, i wrote a long fic of my OTP under the spitefest category, spatium. (you'll have to pry latin titles from my cold, dead hands.) this fic is very explicit and self-indulgent/self-centered, so be aware of the tags.
finally, this was originally going to be another ficwip submission for tiny ships fleet, but i decided against it. thus always to tyrants is just a random one shot that i ended up writing out of nowhere, and it's orpheus/joseph which is surprisingly a super niche pairing on AO3, even in the CN fandom. but i was one of the very few to have written for the ship.
anyway, i think that's all of the posting i did. i've been struggling with brain fog and writer's block, but this month was pretty successful.
reading
you can see my progress on my storygraph. so far i've made a huge amount of progress reading too old for this, which is actually getting super intriguing. the entire book is about medium-paced, but once you hit the 30th chapter, it really draws you in. i love the main character and how she actually feels like an old woman rambling about her past days. i don't have any grandparents anymore, and i don't remember any of them, so this book is honestly super fun.
i've barely made any progress on woman down. i hate the cheating trope, but i was so curious about what people on booktube were saying about this being a "self-insert" that i had to dive in. i normally don't like 1st person POV, and avoid it as much as i can, but i've made some exceptions (namely too old for this). but it's... not horrible? i don't like it, but it's a book that i'll finish since i don't like to leave things unfinished. i know there are people who DNF books, but honestly, i paid for it so i might as well get use out of it before donating it.
roleplaying
i actually... did a little bit of RP, but it didn't end up going anywhere. i'm working on my worldbuilding for my 5k fantasy AU, which my partner and i have roleplayed a little bit of before.
spending
i... honestly cannot remember anything except the trip to buc-ee's.
closing thoughts
i might get rid of the "roleplay" activity and replace it with something else, maybe travel? since i did travel to buc-ee's and it was a four hour road trip. we went for my belated birthday, and it was honestly the most fun i've had in a long while. i really hope to go back next year, or even for christmas lol (when the holidays are over). i don't even wanna think about christmas yet though.
i've been super fixated on my ocs as of late, and i think that's probably why i've been struggling with my writer's block for identity v. it's not burnout from the fandom, though the fandom sucks, but it might just be that i've been wanting to write with my own ideas and these ideas don't really... fit idv? i have a lot of ideas regarding high/epic fantasy and my original indie novel is heavily influenced by epic fantasies like runescape, LOTR, skyrim, etc. and idv is more of the historical victorian fantasy genre, which is fine in itself but my brain really wants to default to medieval swords & sorcery.
i did have an old fantasy fic with elf!joseph, but i lost interest. maybe i'll pick it up for the 5k.
which speaking of, it begins today officially, but posting doesn't begin until august. i really hope i can be patient for that long, since i LOVE to post immediately after finishing something.
so... yeah! i think that sums it all up.
Media consumption
Jul. 1st, 2026 07:43 pmtropicsbear📽️ RRR is amazing and exactly the type of over-the-top-bordering-on-ridiculous action that I enjoy. Things I didn’t expect: The wholesome bromance between Bheem and Ram; and being so moved by Bheem’s refusal to kneel that I teared up.
📽️ I enjoyed Weapons but I think it would’ve benefited from having less POV characters. (Paul, in particular, can go fall off a cliff.) It also wasn’t as scary as I thought I thought it’d be. Which isn’t to say it’s a bad movie; it’s just that I was expecting the tone from Justine’s chapter to carry over into the rest of the movie and it didn’t. 100/10 ending, though 😂
writing websites
Jun. 27th, 2026 07:30 amnautastellarisupdate: i found a pretty cool scrivener alt, penpoint, which is AI-free and is developed by one person.it's $40 USD, and they offer a 14 day free trial and a pretty detailed tutorial. i think it's promising, but i won't cave in just yet.
i'm trying to look for sites that i can track my writing progress, since i want to see how many words per day i actually write (none). i remember using trackbear all the time, and honestly i should give it another shot. it's really simple to use and it doesn't use AI at all. the creator is pretty chill and although i wish it had certain other features like notes, it's really good. i have a public profile although nothing is on it yet.
i've already made an entry about ellipsus, specifically ellipsus plus. other than the monetization of a writing tool that has features i can google for free, i really love ellipsus and its firm anti-AI, pro-human/pro-freedom approach. they actively support all types of creative freedom. they also defend the beloved em-dash.
calmlywriter is another site i've used, and what helps the most is the fact that it has a full screen option, and i also really like to toggle on the typewriter sound. it's soothing and makes it feel a little more immersive. i just think it's one of the best tools if you want a distraction-free writing site. i think you can save your work, but i haven't used it in a while.
the creator of calmlywriter also has justwrite, which is a free writing tool for writer's block. apparently you can't edit or delete anything, which might be a little annoying at first but it's a great place to lore dump and write anything that comes to your head.
and finally, my favorite site, written kitten is a HUGE motivator for cat lovers like me lol. you can set a word goal, and once you hit that goal it'll show you a photo of a kitten. you can also edit the site a little so it can show you pictures of whatever you want, though i just like my cat pics lol.
all of the websites are free, although some like ellipsus offer freemium subscriptions. otherwise, i think these are all of the free sites i can think of at the moment. lemme know if you have other recommendations, especially free/low-cost. i tried scrivener which is $60 USD (though they sometimes have sales), and it's a little tricky but i got the hang of it. other than that, many of these are cost-friendly/free to use!
(no i am not affiliated with anyone lol.)
i'm trying to look for sites that i can track my writing progress, since i want to see how many words per day i actually write (none). i remember using trackbear all the time, and honestly i should give it another shot. it's really simple to use and it doesn't use AI at all. the creator is pretty chill and although i wish it had certain other features like notes, it's really good. i have a public profile although nothing is on it yet.
i've already made an entry about ellipsus, specifically ellipsus plus. other than the monetization of a writing tool that has features i can google for free, i really love ellipsus and its firm anti-AI, pro-human/pro-freedom approach. they actively support all types of creative freedom. they also defend the beloved em-dash.
calmlywriter is another site i've used, and what helps the most is the fact that it has a full screen option, and i also really like to toggle on the typewriter sound. it's soothing and makes it feel a little more immersive. i just think it's one of the best tools if you want a distraction-free writing site. i think you can save your work, but i haven't used it in a while.
the creator of calmlywriter also has justwrite, which is a free writing tool for writer's block. apparently you can't edit or delete anything, which might be a little annoying at first but it's a great place to lore dump and write anything that comes to your head.
and finally, my favorite site, written kitten is a HUGE motivator for cat lovers like me lol. you can set a word goal, and once you hit that goal it'll show you a photo of a kitten. you can also edit the site a little so it can show you pictures of whatever you want, though i just like my cat pics lol.
all of the websites are free, although some like ellipsus offer freemium subscriptions. otherwise, i think these are all of the free sites i can think of at the moment. lemme know if you have other recommendations, especially free/low-cost. i tried scrivener which is $60 USD (though they sometimes have sales), and it's a little tricky but i got the hang of it. other than that, many of these are cost-friendly/free to use!
(no i am not affiliated with anyone lol.)
